I don't think I want to have a protected list on Xanga anymore. I think I just want everything to be public and not keep anything hidden and just post whatever unless I keep it under private... the problem with this is that random numbers of people read my blog whether or not I link the entry with facebook, and I don't even know any of them. Oh well. If I really find something necessary to post under protected then I will because some stuff is meant to be there and not for the eyes of everyone... some stuff written on there, there is no thought of "is this really necessary to share?"
As Mrs. Blonda said, we talk to much... I'm going to have to agree. And some stuff has the ability to cause division, such as blogs like foxy in which only one person knew about and brownies in which only two people shared at some point even if they're both over. It just isn't necessary... I'm not sure of how much I will continue to post on there, maybe I'll keep my posts public with some protected or maybe I'll post on here more often, who knows. I'll make up my mind eventually...
well foxy is now simply a place to put interesting conversations. i deleted everything else from the site. as for sheyells and brownies- the stuff we write to each other now is because there are a few things that he knows that you dont know that are my family's business and i'm not allowed to share them with anyone else. i got in major trouble at first because of him knowing. and so when i have to talk to him about those sorts of things, i write it there.
ReplyDeleteas for why i will always keep my posts protected- bc places like "mancouch" read my public blogs and i dont want them knowing what i prayed about or what i ate for dinner or anything else i might post on there. too many strange xanga people come to my sites for me to post anything about me public.
if you wanna go all public then whatev- thats up to you, if it dont bother you, then go for it, one less step you gotta take everytime you blog i guess.
i just basically wrote this comment to let you know why i'm not going to change my blogs, and also i dont know that anything on the blogs i have could cause division unless you're taking offense at them and letting it. cause they arent dividing the rest of us, and they werent intended to attack or divide anything or anyone.
I didn't mean they were causing division, just that they had the ability to. I mean look at it this way- think of how Bruce felt when he found your foxy blog. An entire blog that talks about him that you only shared with me and Sierra [if she was on there]. As for you and Bruce sharing a blog... well, that's you guys' business. If you wanna share stuff with him that you don't wanna share with me, who am I to say anything against it, go for it. I prefer to have my own blog, and my new preference as to why I posted this is to not keep things hidden from anyone like you, Bruce, and Theo [the rest of us, lol...] If you guys wanna have your own thing, do it, but I'm not going to... and if you want to I completely understand and will not be bothered.
ReplyDeleteAnother thing that I didn't mention and should have was about how I would post things that would confuse you or frustrate you, that not being my intention, but just the fact that we weren't communicating right [vice versa] I don't want that to become a hindrance to like our prayer walk and friendship and stuff. To me it's how much stuff I post that is necessary and that isn't, because some of it isn't and/or will end up causing confusion because of it being taken the wrong way [vice versa] and I don't want to do that to you guys[?] because it's just... un-needed, idk. Division. I'm trying to take a step forward and put a filer on how much I'm telling everyone because looking over the past few months at least one post a month has a list of bleh below it because somewhere something got misunderstood...
Anyway, I knew why you kept your stuff protected, and I understand, mancouch is a pedo. Anything I post publicly I may disable comments to... I wish I could block those users... maybe I will... like I said I'll figure out my own way of doing this. I'm still going to blog, I enjoy it, and as far as "I ate a chicken sandwich today!" maybe I'll do that even if it's un-necessary, because I might feel like it and it won't provoke anything wrong. [What kind of mayonnaise did you use!!!! That's illegal!!! Repent!]
Maybe I'll make a new blogspot and invite Bruce to read it and post on there, I wanna say I feel less stalked by random people on blogspot anyway, but you can't protect things so maybe not...
Anyway there we go! :)
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ReplyDeleteyeah my watchgirl site all 4 of us can read. my sheyells site i use to talk to brownies. we dont share that site anymore, and really we dont use either of them much except in the past couple weeks we've used them to clear up all the confusion between us concerning the past, and as i said there is a family thing that i am not allowed to talk about to anyone but him bc he accidentally found out a long time ago. so when i need prayer about that or to vent about its affect, i do post there. most of the time it never gets read anyways. which is fine. it usually doesnt need to.
i think it interesting that you think that the foxy blog could've divided, bc in my mind i see things like that (or rather the finding of something like that) to be a pulling closer type thing. guess its all in how you look at it. division was never its purpose. and at this point it pretty much lacks a purpose at all. i may delete it. cause the name came from 2 nicknames that matt gave me... which is kinda awkward if i let myself think about it. :)
blogspot does seem a bit more private (altho mostly cause you cant see who is looking at your blog on here... altho i'm wondering if i can still get myxspy on here cause then it would show...) the only thing about that is, even if bruce subscribes, he seldom reads these. you'd have to post on xanga "hey i posted on blogspot" everytime you blogged. :)
btw i dont know how bruce felt when he found that blog. but i know he went back several times and ended up reading the whole thing (after i put him on protected- the day before i deleted it all). it interested him, bc it was like seeing into another part of my brain. - he wants to analyze the 4 of us and the way we think and talk. which i think will be interesting to see what i must appear like to others outside. anyways that was a bit of a random tangent...
i am realizing that me and you really dont think anything alike. that is why stuff always gets confused. we clash on alot. we dont agree on alot. but we're both very outspoken, opinionated, and a bit bull-headed. :) so it seems to at least once a month (wonder if thats a coincidence?) cause an issue of some sort. which is kinda another reason i vent on a different blog sometimes... bc later once i'm out of that frame of mind, if i still want it posted then i'll post it on the main site. if not i'll just go delete it from the private site, and no one has to see it. i have found lately that if i am slower to show my anger or frustration or irritation about something, the better it is, even if i still have those feelings, letting yall know about them just seems to make me feel like yall look down on me. even if you dont. so i'm kinda moderating what i post too...
ok well this is a bit of a blog. so hasta pasta